It is now raining. I don't know why, but every time the rain pours, my emotions want to break out.
Listening to Cristina Aguilera's HURT brings back memories. Memories, I once wish I never had.
"Nagtatanim ako ng sama ng loob". I don't forgive easily and I never forget the wrongs that people did to me.
I have a very dark past. A past I once wished never occurred. But, what can I do? They say these sad, sad memories and experiences will make us a better and stronger individual. But, why do I feel so weak?
I now realize that I blame too may individuals.
I am a person too weak too move on. Too weak to make my past as an inspiration. Instead, I let them be a burden that holds me from becoming the person I dreamed to be.
I am not able to open my heart to love. True, many things holds me from experiencing heavenly things such as love.
I am not reluctant to admit that I fear regrets. I do.
I fear regrets and rejections too much that I am not able to do things that will make me happy.
I once thought that I was strong. Oh boy, was I so wrong!
Now, I fear regrets even more. But unlike what I used to be, I shall use this fear to make me stronger. I will now slowly pave my way into forgiving the people whom I think did me wrong. This time, for real.
To myself, I shall inform you if i have been victorious.
'Till then be STRONG.
Keep Loving and don't be afraid that your love won't be reciprocated. Just love and love will lead you the way. :)
